May 9,2009. Basically yesterday i babysat and got $25! and on monday they will annouce who made 'section leader for the trumpet section i am so exiceted hopefully i got it! because i really want it because some of the guys are assholes haah!
soooo. i am so exicted for next year my senior year of high school i just really don't know how things are going to run and that makes me nervous! hopefully i will be able to drive by then and have a job and handle school at the same time. but that is my goal and then next year i will be in college omg!
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Life comes at your Fast!
Well Today was Friday! and it basically didn't feel like it :(
My Best Friend is treating me like crap and i don't know why. She is just like not returning any of my calls, i don't want to seem like a big freak but i just called her once. so whatever
We cannot all be heroes. Somebody has to sit on the curb and clap as they go by.
it`s not about being who everyone else wants you to be it`s about being yourself & finding someone who loves every bit of it
This is for the girls who never won. The girls who sat late at night listening to music that inspires them to do things next to impossible. The girls thatlaugh, smile and cryon a daily basis. The girls who live, learn and regret. The girls who may never have it easy. The girls who learned the hard way, and lived to tell about it. The real girls. &SHE LIVES FOR THE NIGHTS where she finally can escape. where all she has to do is turn on her ipod and walk to nowhere and beyond. looking all tough and unbroken when in reality all she wan
I like clouds in picture >3
I love this picture. The Sun and Clouds are amazing. :D
I took this one.
I can't escape myself So many times i've lied But there's still rage inside Somebody get me through this nightmare I can't control myself
Looking at you,holding my breath, For once in my life,I'm scared to death, I'm taking a chance,letting you inside.
ts more is for that one person to come along and sweep her off her feet. <3
People say hate is a strong word ;; but so is love && people throw it around like its nothing
"hope is why the stars light their candles every night. even when the darkness is too deep for you to see them, you know they're out there, shining and beaming across millions of miles. so i tell you, don't give up on hope and it won't give up on you."
Life isn't about how many people call you and it's not about who you've dated, are dating, or haven't dated at all. It's not about grades, money, clothes, or colleges that accept you or not. Life isn't about if you have lots of friends, or if you are alone, and it's not about how accepted or unaccepted you are. Life just isn't about that. But life is about who you love and who you hurt. It's about how you feel about yourself. It's about trust, happiness, and compassion. It's about sticking up for your friends and replacing inner hate with love. Life is about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance, and building confidence. It's about what you say and what you mean. It's about seeing people for who they are and not for what they have. Most of all, it is about living your life to touch someone else's.
Buy me a ring that will turn my finger green so I can imagine our love is a forest and I can get lost in you. And I swear I grew like a wildflower, those years I was with you.
I don't know why. Maybe it's because you're mad. Maybe it's because you're afraid. Maybe it's because you're also a little confused. Maybe it's because you want to act cool. But whatever the reason; you're breaking my heart.
The worst feeling in the world is sitting back and watching people you care about ruin their lives and knowing there is nothing you can do about it.
Yeah, we've had our fights and we've put each other through hell. We picked each other up when one of us fell. We'll always be together, because I honestly don't know where I'd be without you.
so exams are coming, and i've managed to get straight A's all year, except right now i'm like failing drivers ed. how am i expected to know what a carborator or a radiator does?! it just really pisses me off.
school and people in general are really pissing me off lately. i don't know why.
Grey's was heartbreaking, and i don't want to wait till september to find out if they die.
i just want it to be next year already, next school year. i want to be a senior and i want to have 4 ap classes and i want to be applying for colleges. i'm ready to move on, and time is moving too slow for me now.
i always have this fear that one day you are going to discover that i'm not as great as you once thought i was.
She says she wants to die, but in reality, she just wants to be saved.
there was something in his voice that made her think that maybe this time would be different.
You know, sometimes we make decisions about our life and they feel like the right decision at the time. No, they are the right decisions at the time. But that doesn't mean they'll be right decisions forever, and you know what I've realized as I've gotten older? There isn't a definite right and wrong anyway. Sometimes we do what seems wrong but we have good reasons for doing it so it's not so wrong after all.
Half the world is composed of people who have something to say and can't, and the other half who have nothing to say and keep saying it
do you ever get that feeling where you don't want to talk to anybody you don't want to smile, and you don't want to fake being happy, but you don't really know what's wrong?
laugh when you can apologize when you should. let go of what you can't change. kiss slowly, play hard, forgive quickly. take chances, give everything, and have no regrets. life is too short to be anything but happy.
give me one more drink and i swear i'll be ready to make the same mistakes with you again.
Look to the past and remember and smile. And maybe tonight I can breathe for awhile. I'm not in the scene, I think I'm fallin' asleep But then all that it means is I'll always be dreaming of you.
i always have this fear that one day you are going to discover that i'm not as great as you once thought i was.
I do regret more than I admit. You have been followed back to the same place. I sat with you drink for drink. Take the pain out of love and then love won't exist
I know. I've known it since the moment you kissed me and maybe even before that, and scary as it is, I don't want to deny it anymore. I don't want to run from it and I don't want to let it run from me.
You have to walk carefully in the beginning of love; the running across fields into your lover's arms can only come later when you're sure they won't laugh if you trip.
Your my right when everythings wrong Your always there to keep me strong You dryed my tears when I wanted to cry Made life worth living when I wanted to die
the biggest mistake you can make is to drift apart from someone who you once had the time of your life with.
I felt comfortable around you. When I was with you, I didn't have to be perfect. I didn't even have to try for perfect. You already knew my secrets, and things I kept hidden from everyone else. So I was able to finally just be myself. Which probably shouldn't have been such a big deal; but it was.
"It's funny how the world changes sometimes. How the streets you've walked your entire life suddenly seem darker, colder. How the silence isn't so quiet anymore. How eyes you've barely even noticed, now look at nothing but you. How the walk home every night is no longer a routine, but a victory. And then you begin to wonder - maybe it's not the world that's changed; maybe it's just you. And then, suddenly, you begin to wonder all over again."
Im a daughter hiding my depression. Im a sister making a good impression. In your friend acting like im fine. im a teenager pushing her tears aside. Im the girl sitting next to you. Im the one asking you to care. Im your best friend, hoping you'll be there.
I'd give anything to read your mind, to get into your head. Then maybe I'd find out how to get you to notice me once more, to make you want me like you used to. But then again, I guess I'd also find out how much you don't care for me, and what you really think about when you look at me.
you should thank your lucky stars for all the times you've been ashamed. you'll learn more from the harder times then the times you've been vain. the lesson learned is a priceless gain if you can take the sting
All I'm asking is don't make promises you can't keep, and don't say things you don't mean because in the end, those things mean everything.
There's always going to be bad stuff out there. But here's the amazing thing - light trumps darkness, every time. You stick a candle into the dark, but you can't stick the dark into the light. -Jodi Picoult.
Sometimes happiness is loud and raucous, but now it's the calm chirp of crickets and the call of a lone owl that speak to me: I am in love and I cannot express how happy I am because of it, because of him.
Instead of holding you, I was holding out. I should have let you in, but I let you down. You were the first to give, I was the first to ask. Now I'm in second place, to get a second chance. -October Fall
we're just afraid, period. our fear is free floating. we're afraid this isn't the right relationship or we're afraid it is. we're afraid they won't like us or we're afraid they will. we're afraid of failure or we're afraid success. we're afraid of dying young and afraid of growing old. we're more afraid of life than death
roads that we thought we should have taken, but turned the other way. dreams that we died to have because they'd bring us closer to what we wanted so badly at the end of the day, none of it matters. no matter how much we change, the reason why stays the same.
And the thing is, I don't care what people think about me Because I believe in myself. And I know that things are going to be okay.
Even when the sun forgets to shine, I'll be there to hold you through the night. And even when we're miles and miles apart, You're the only one who holds my heart.
So when I make a big mistake When I fall flat on my face I know I'll be alright Should my tender heart be broken I will cry those teardrops knowing I will be just fine because nothing changes who I am.
and in this crazy life and through these crazy times it’s you, it’s you, you make me sing you’re every line, you’re every word you’re everything.
i turn on my side and i can hear myself breathe it's pretty quiet outside i miss the sound of you next to me when you take my hand in your sleep and held me close to you i never felt so safe i close my eyes to remember but it's just not the same
Love is like a mountain, hard to climb, but once you get to the top the view is beautiful.
"She's the girl who is always laughing her ass off with her friends. she's not faking that smile, she's happy, but with you, she'd never stop smiling."
So here I am, walking down the street in a flowing gown and peep toe shoes. And here I go, carrying a clear umbrella through the 80 degree weather. Oops, there I go, wearing a mini skirt over my jeans and t-shirt over my long sleeve shirt. Just for kicks, I'll skip backwards in circles going down the hall with my friends. Just watch me, ‘cause there I go again, being different.
So yes, I know that love is unconditional, but I also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and what I'm trying to say is... I think I love you. Is this love? I never imagined I'd know it for myself. My heart... it feels like my chest can barely contain it, like it's trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me anymore. It belongs you, and if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange - no gifts. No goods. No demonstration of devotion. Nothing but know you loved me, too. Just your heart in exchange for mine. -Stardust.
I don't mind not knowing what I'm headed for. You can take me to the skies, because it's like being lost in heaven when I'm lost in your eyes.
Strange how a single conversation can change you. Or maybe it only seems that way in retrospect. A year passes and you know you feel differently, but you’re not sure what or why or how, so your mind casts back for something that might give that difference shape: a word, a glance, a touch."
There's a line drawn between the beginning and end of anything, And somehow we find hope everytime we cross that line.
the problem is that we hate change and love it at the same time - what we really want is for things to remain the same, but get better
I lie on the grass, breathing in the silence, listening to the night, looking up at the stars. I look up at the night sky and I wonder about life, about you, about why I'm here, and I look up at those cold, beautiful stars, so far away, and I realize life has never seemed so big.
I laid the blanket there on the shoreline, and saw the water shine with the moon. What kind of fool would fail to notice the best thing shining was you? -"Every Time" by Jessica Andrews.
"You can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks, or even months over-analyzing a situation; trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could've, would've happened...or you can just leave the pieces on the floor and move on."
To conquer oneself is a greater task than conquering others.
Everybody's got their scars, never mind how ugly they are. No matter what they tell you, you're beautiful the way you are. -"Star Song" by Bowling for Soup.
Every person has two sides to them. One they let the world see & one they keep to themselves .
I am me. In all the world, there is no one else exactly like me. Everything that comes out of me is authentically mine, because I alone chose it - I own everything about me: my body, my feelings, my mouth, my voice, all my actions, whether they be to others or myself. I own my fantasies, my dreams, my hopes, my fears. I own my triumphs and successes, all my failures and mistakes. Because I own all of me, I can become intimately acquainted with me. By so doing, I can love me and be friendly with all my parts. I know there are aspects about myself that puzzle me, and other aspects that I do not know - but as long as I am friendly and loving to myself, I can courageously and hopefully look for solutions to the puzzles and ways to find out more about me. However I look and sound, whatever I say and do, and whatever I think and feel at a given moment in time is authentically me. If later some parts of how I looked, sounded, thought, and felt turn out to be unfitting, I can discard that which is unfitting, keep the rest, and invent something new for that which I discarded. I can see, hear, feel, think, say, and do. I have the tools to survive, to be close to others, to be productive, and to make sense and order out of the world of people and things outside of me. I own me, and therefore, I can engineer me. I am me, and I am okay. -Virginia Satir.
one of these days, we're all gonna reach our limits.
I didn't want to wake you cause I knew I couldn't stay. I'm looking foward to looking back on these days and I'm fine, but I'm not okay.
Sometimes the questions are simple, but the answers are complicated. - Dr. Suess
One day you're jumping in puddles & the next thing you know, 30 years have passed & you're telling your kids to walk around them. Everyone is taught to look both ways before crossing the street and to talk quietly in the library But no one ever learns anything that matters, like how to keep breathing when your heart breaks in half.
But I will say that if you're alive, you got to flap your arms and legs, you got to jump around a lot, you got to make a lot of noise, because life is the very opposite of death and therefore, as I see it, if you're quiet, you're not living. You've got to be noisy or at least your thoughts should be noisy and colorful and lively.
It's those things you hate about yourself that someday someone will love about you.
It's strange 'cause, in ways, we are all just faces in a crowd, beating hearts, and then we are dead. And all that ever matters is who and what we loved, and that they loved us. -Pete Wentz.
This is the muchly needed update* Sorry guys, I've just been so busy; and i think i want to share with you guys why. Have you ever been heartbroken?
I'm talking about the whole, your heart stopped beating, fell to the bottom of your stomach, ripped out of your chest, torn into a million tiny pieces, thrown onto the ground, stomped on and left in the gutter, kind of heartbroken. I know there's a billion people on Xanga, and I'm sure they've all talked about how they're with some guy, but what do you care? Well, I get it, you don't know that guy or that person, i mean why should you care? You're certainly not in love with them. But here's something we all share...we've all been to the point where we don't want to get out of bed, where you can't stop crying, like you go to bed crying and wake up the same way. You feel like....well like you've died on the inside. And it's so sad to say that this depression, this sadness or tragedy (if you must) that can be described in a sentance or two, has lasted for months inside of my heart. I mean, I lost it. I really lost it. And no, i'm not so pathetic to be one of those high school girls who dates a guy for a month and cries when its over. No, im talking about a summer love, puppy love. A first romance. One that lasted over a good year. See, when you're in a realationship with someone it become a routine. You base what you do, around that person. But when it goes away...you have nothing left to stand on. You fall down. And right now, I'm teaching myself to stand back up. Have you ever found yourself in a moment, where you feel as if the Earth stopped spinning? The literally, the whole world grows quiet, like someone hit the ultimate mute button. All you can hear is your heart beating. A moment of total shock. Now people say things though like, 'I went into shock' and it always sounds so normal. But it's not, not in the slightest amount. Anyways- I went into shock.
Now, everyone has a sob story but it's no excuse. I'll end my little rant here. I just wanted people to know; You're not alone... Comment! (Really, I'd love to talk :) )
Well, it seems to me that the best relationships the ones that last are frequently the ones that are rooted in friendship. You know, one day you look at the person and you see something more than you did the night before. Like a switch has been flicked somewhere. And the person who was just a friend is... suddenly the only person you can ever imagine yourself with.
Once upon a time, we really loved each other, but as time went by, there just got to be all these things, little things, stupid things, that were left unsaid. And all these things that were left unsaid piled up, like the clutter in our storage room. And after awhile, there was so much that was left unsaid, that we barely said anything at all.
And the silence of the morning wraps my heart in a blanket of used to be's. I know you're over me. I walk to the window, slip on my lonely shoes. I put on some coffee so I can keep on wishing I was over you. But I'm not over you.
I love when the sky is gray. When the dawn paints the roofs of the buildings and the sun is still hiding. The city is ours then. Right before everyone takes over, right when everyone is still sleeping. It’s hard to notice that it’s so cold when it’s this pretty.
I just want to feel safe with someone.. to not always be wondering how he feels about me, to not always be waiting for him to walk away, to not always wishing he would love me back. I need to be able to trust that a man is there for me for the right reasons, because he cares enough to be there.
Everything, you will see, comes together in it's own ironic kind of way, so live in just today.
Take it as it comes, and take me as I am. I never was a good imposter, but I know how to dream. And don't know where I stand, I'm willing to admit I try too hard.
"we all take different paths in life, but no matter where we go, we take a little of each other everywhere."
When you take, you take the very best of me. So I start a fight cause I need to feel something and you do what you want because i'm not what you wanted.
but the struggles make you stronger, and the changes make you wise, and happiness has its own way of taking its sweet time. life isn't always beautiful, but it's a beautiful ride.
he was so much to me. my boyfriend. my best friend. my perfect man. my shoulder to lean on. & most of all, he was my world.
Love's a thing we spend a lot of time and effort looking for when it's the thing that hurts the most.
You're gonna fly with every dream you chase. You're gonna cry, but know that that's okay. Sometimes life's not fair, but if you hang in there, you're gonna see that sometimes bad is good. We just have to believe things will work out like they should. Life has no guarantees, but always loved by me, you're gonna be.
the best feeling in the world is when there are butterflies in your stomach, & you know that something absolutely incredible is about to happen
the nights are getting warm again. they've let you go, ive let you in. everything you're saying sounds right tonight. i dont believe that anybody feels the way i do about you now
I wanna be the girl who changed everything that girl that made a difference that girl who gave everyone a story to tell.
You've gotten so caught up in being alone that you're afraid of what might happen if you actually find someone else that can take you away from it
Promise yourself to be strong, that nothing can disturb your peace of mind. Look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true. Think only of the best, work only for the best, and expect only the best. Forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future. Give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others. Live in the faith that the whole world is on your side as long, as you are true to the best that is in you.
someday you're going to meet someone who drives you mad, who you're going to fight with & laugh with. someone who you'll do insane things for, someone, who is going to turn your life upside down.
I don't know what I want to do with my life, I just know I want to do it. I want to see my world. I want to meet every single person breathing on this earth. I want to give everyone a hug or a handshake and I want to make someone's life a little easier. I want to be different than the people I know because that's what makes us beautiful. I want to be absolutely ridiculous before I die. I don't want regrets. I want to stand for something.
I just do what I want. it's not what about what people are saying. It's about me. Everyone else can just fuck off.
Falling in love, you should go with it. Regardless of whether or not your heart gets smashed. You'll end up being a better person.
we fall like shooting stars and autumn leaves. staying up later then the streetlights, promising what could never be. i cant be anything without you, i cant be anything without you by my side.
If I had my life to live over again, next time I'd give you more kisses & hold you closer. I'd memorize everything you ever said to me & carry it in my heart like a poem. If I had my life to live over again, next time I'd find you sooner so I could love you longer and better
So what if I started crying in front of you yesterday? Maybe I'm just not as strong willed as I used to be. I'm trying my best just to even get through the day. I'm not brave, I never really was. I just made myself and other believe I was. I didn't want to let anyone see me cry. Now i have. And it doesn't even matter to me anymore
he was her best friend. the one who made her laugh, when she didn't feel like smiling, the one who made her feel secure, when she was scared& the one who she completely fell in love with.
who are you to judge the life I live? I know I'm not perfect and I don't try to be. But before you start pointing fingers, make sure your own hands are clean.
I think I am okay with my life right now. I think I am perfectly content with the direction in which it is headed. I think I have finally figured out the things that once confused me. I think I am ready to move on. I think I think too much
I've changed so much. I wish you knew how much you changed me. I know I didn’t change yours but, my gosh, you taught me so much, and from that I've grown. I guess that's what happens.
She said that she wanted to get high; he took her to the tallest hill in town. She said that she wanted to stay up all night & drink; he gave her a 12-pack of caffeinated Pepsi & said, "Drink up." She said that she wanted to shoot herself in the face; he gave her a water gun, put her finger on the trigger, aimed it at her face, & helped her pull the trigger. She said that she wanted to cut herself; he took a Polaroid of her, handed it to her along with scissors, & had her cut it up. She said that she wanted to see her blood; he took her to get her ears pierced. She said that she wanted to cry herself to sleep; he had her watch a sad, romantic movie before bed. She said that she wanted to be alone; he gave her a name tag that said, "My Name Is: Alone." She said that she wanted to have someone there to take care of her, always; he asked when he wasn't.
I’m in trouble, I’m an addict. I’m addicted to this boy. He’s got my heart tied in a knot and my stomach in a whirl.
I’d long ago learned not to be picky in farewells. They weren’t guaranteed or promised. You were lucky, more than blessed, if you got a goodbye at all.
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Hi my name is Jess!(:
You probably don't care about this, and I can't say that I blame you. I won't bore you with an about me. But I would like to say that I want to inspire people. I'll only say or put up stuff that I think will someday make a change in this world. We can all make a difference, someday, somehow. Don't worry, I love you already!
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Sup? I'm Katie as you could tell with the name being above the picture and what not. (: Like Jess had mentioned, I don't intend on boring you with this about me stuff. So, lets cut to the chase, shall we? I want to change the world one day. I believe in orginality, peace, and giving people second chances. It's life, so just live it, love it, learn from it, and respect it.
Hey! We're Orangie and Greenie CO and you Are here to check us out? yes. you are! we've got lot's of stuff. our home site is under construction but will be running shortly! We provide anything you'll need formyspaceand more! All we ask is that you please don't jock anything and that you tell us. what you use and/or want. We do this for fun. so, don't think we're like workoholics or something. jock us? and we'll block you for good :] love O&G Co.
